'`°*•☆ inward --- [jan 19] [afternoon] holding lightly onto the shoulder of the memories... sun out softly, want to go on a walk at the lake (can't figure out if to take my phone for pics/music or not, probs not), and then get groceries. then put away the dry laundry. then see what next, maybe soundcloud backlog visitings. want to adjust the styling of my site's scrapbook page a bit. [jan 16] [morning] still variably sad about having fallen out with someone last month (theyd got too weirded out in the end by what id said to/about them, cos of the feelings id had for them). i liked their presence even on friend terms, even despite the fact we met irl barely a couple times a year at most. i cherished the past hangout moment memories, and would have appreciated more of them, in general. it is what it is. trying not to feel too guilty about things. [evening] ok im feeling more fine (for) now. have intentionally left my phone home going to work two days in a row - it's felt kind of nice (and i dont live far from work anyway). stupid amounts of candy crush, sure, but have also got some things done, and my mind's had some space to breathe. [jan 02 2026] [at work] @lunch is the train stop on your own site... ok wait looks like it is - your site mediumkey brought tears into my eyes in a good "oh Wowwwwww" type of way upon first explorations :,]