6-9-26 in austin i always lose my place when i’m here similar font with a slightly different message or is it the other way around? can’t remember in these towns soft ceilings and doubled floors freezing oscillating air can never get it just right where it all fits in the airports are cavernous while the dark work caves make me feel a little human in contest to the model it’ll all be too expensive but shipped out cheap where is the pulse i can’t fantasize at least for now to hear it here 6-7-26 it still bothers me i'm glad we at least talked it through and i know you're sorry, but it doesn't make it hurt any less... i don't really know much about him but i do know he's perfect for you at least a little more perfect than me i'm not certain i even know you any better than him guilty guilty... distant distant but i know you might find yourself in towns far over watching the movies i wanted to watch should i find a distant man? i don't know where i'd go outside is probably a good first choice. maybe a coffee shop? or in another park like where i first found you. maybe i'll go to chicago again, when i first left, and you were really disappointed and said you wanted distance, even though that's all we had that was only a month. it took three to really think it over and a phone call to return back to your apartment things didn't seem to change then just drift in and out tides and ghosts and anxious thoughts you call us friends, but friends create something together and i don't know what exactly we've created, what has really come of it what evidence you've left in my place or if you'll just occupy a small corner of my mind one deep sigh on my chest i know it was never going to work out. i made that decision when we first met but i can't help but still feel a little jealous and lonely and feel a bit guilty of those feelings because i am happy that you are finding happiness i'm headed to austin again i don't know what i'll want when i come back but i know i'll just have to find something new or try to be someone new ================================ > new time. new place. > out of words. scrub the board. ================================